I HAVE AN AWESOME PAIR OF.......ARMPITS

YES! I said armpits! ARGHHHHH
I have been working out since Jan 1st, and haven't really lost any weight. Now ..I do realize, and repeat to myself constantly, that building muscle is what needs to be done in order to then have that muscle burn the excess...and I mean EXCESS of fat that seems to cling to my body for dear life!
That said, I also realize that muscle is much heavier then said fat! Which explains why initally, I did gain a few lbs the first month I started my torture...I mean exercising schedule.
I have been pretty consistant in doing a mixture of cardio and resistance training with lots of crunches & core exercises on a floor mat to have a well rounded routine that takes me about an hour in all. Usually 4 or 5 times a week.
I have heard so many ppl that start working out say once they got into it, they LOVE it and NEED it...hate to miss it.
I am still waiting for this epiphany of need TO HIT ME! Seriously I personally think they are all full of bovine waste product! but hey, if saying that helps them to just DO IT, good for them!

As for moi? I HATE every *!^~%#!$@$*! Second of it! Seriously! I hate hate hate it...but..I can safely say I LOVE when I finished that god forsaken hour of HELL..that seems like it took a freakin half day of my life!
After over 3 months of this torture, I have FINALLY started to see a few results...some mild measurement reductions....let me mention that my little sewers tape measure mortifyingly couldn't reach around my waist...yes folks I am VERY VALUPTUOUS in stature (this being the most diplomatic of discriptions I could think of ). So using the big construction measuring tape from the garage has proved to be imbarrasing if anything but the Wheeeee & SLAP sound it makes when it's auto retreat mechanism brings it back to its casing is Disconcerting at best.
I don't think I have a number of lbs to lose goal anymore, I think it will be using a sewers measuring tape goal instead lol! Once I get to that pinnacle of achievement I will do naked backward cartwheels (in my mind).
So anyway, I digress!...As I was saying earlier...things have started to change, very subtly...of this I am very gratefull but still impatient..it's so true what they say, the older we get the harder and longer it takes to lose weight and see changes.
As I was putting my nighty on last night, I was facing the mirror and stopped in amazement...while my arms were up in the air! My ARMPITS have lost weight!!! OMG I started laughing, called Chris over...Look! My armpits are hollower! It's so noticeable it's funny! Why couldn't it be my waist for the love of Pete! NOOO I have to have deeper armpits! YAY working out has helped the one area that NO ONE else will ever notice LMAO!!
Unless ofcourse I start walking around and randomly lift my arms and point...LOOK..see....eh, obvious isn't it??? My pits rock!

Ok, so I have had my little vent...but let me reiterate that I am going to continue to do my body good by exercising...ofcourse I want to melt and look the way I did at 20 but I know that's NOT GONNA HAPPEN .......EVER!!.....lol..I do want to be healthier however and those days I just don't feel like it (basically everyday) I have to repeat to myself JUST DO IT!! and I usually do, and proud of myself for it.

I have come a very long way....For those who did not know, a few yrs ago I was a very sick person...I had full blown type 2 diabetis.. with a very slow thyroid , so weight got way out of hand, morbidly obese , high bp, cholesterol , swelling, reflux...u name it, I had perscriptions for it! I was taking meds for diabetis and so many other things, it wasn't funny! I was way too young to be so sick...with my kidneys showing bad results it got really scary when my doctor said, if things didn't change I was on the road to dialosis..soon!...NO WAY!
By that time, I was already on a waiting list for Gastric Bypass.. It was the best way for me to get the ball rolling healthwise and go from there...but let me tell you, anyone who thinks it's a quick fix that is easy are SO WRONG!...It's not easy by any means and it certainly does not eliminate the problems caused to need it in the first place! I lost 80lbs within a few months of surgery, that enables my body to better deal with diabetis without the meds..and slowly most all the meds I had been taking, were eliminated one by one !! I got alot healthier! That said...even if you can't eat alot at once, u can still eat often and you can still gain weight...it started to creep back slowly..but I refuse to go back where I was...so over the last 2 yrs I have struggled with food and exercise like many ...on and off the wagon so to speak...and I will struggle with it all my life...I have made alot of good food long term habit changes that will stay with me always..but I refuse to DIET.. Diets are what make ppl fat..they do not work! The key is moderation and logic..we can have anything we want, just not tons of it lol..its that simple..The moment we deprive ourselves of things, we want them more and go crazy till we want to eat a tub full of it at once lol...u get the picture...Anyway....
I still weigh over 200lbs...yes I actually just wrote that for everyone to see...but that's ok...I have come a very long way, to being a much healthier person, striving to become even better every day...kicking and screaming with each step I take! LOL....I have every reason to want to live longer and be healthy doing it with the fabulous husband I have who supports me no matter what I do, who loves me no matter how much I weigh and who is often working out right next to me sweating on the days he isn't at work...During the last 8 yrs we have been together no matter my size (and there has been quite a few lol) he has ALWAYS made me feel like I was the most beautiful and sexy woman in the world to him! How lucky am I?
So I will finish this by saying:

HURRAY FOR HOLLOWER ARMPITS!!
I can only strive for more hollows to follow! One day at a time!

BLAST FROM THE PAST!

I had a wonderful afternoon today! I was able to reunite with a friend I hadn't seen in almost 30 yrs! It's those moments you realize that time really does fly by! To be honest, it can also be abit intimidating to be 30 yrs older and on your way to meet such an old friend...but again, life is too short to let such things hold you back.
I was so excited to see Darryl again and meet his wife Barb...truth be told, he looks terrific and very happy. Within a few minutes, his wife seemed like someone we had known for yrs also. Very genuine and generous of nature. It's not always easy for spouses, when 2 ppl who went to school together start comparing notes and naming names lol...but Barb and Chris seemed to take us in stride and even got on well talking to eachother while Darryl and I reminised.
If there was one down side to the day it was that originaly, the plan was for them to come to our house to spend the whole day. Unfortunately it couldn't happen so we met them at one of our favorite restaurants in downtown Montreal instead for lunch...So the plan is for us to get together again some time!
The visit was to short lived, and I would love to make new memories...so.


Darryl and Barb...to next time...hopefully staying in our home or if we go out your way in future...Chris and I look forward to sharing more good conversations.....

more stories and adventures and continued friendship!
Thanks for a great afternoon!....

Hortense & Matilda have relatives!

As I start my 48th yr, as it was my 47th bday yesterday..it has become more then apparent that theres some things we just have to deal with and try to do it with either humour or good graces!

I know what I want for my bday, just need to go get it for myself this week...or as SOON AS I POSSIBLY CAN! Let me explain.....

Couple weeks ago, Chris and I were shopping at a house wares store, and while in the bathroom section I see some mirrors. I found myself propelled towards a round mirror that had a long folding arm. The arm is meant to be attached to the wall, so u can pull it out and possition as needed etc...I have found in the past yrs that my eyesight has done that AGE thing, where u have to back up about 10 feet to see the writting on the wall so to speak..ARGH.. so yes, I have found myself stacking the rooms with those little reading glasses..atleast to make it fun, I have accumulated some really cute, colourful ones for chuckles, I look so cute with my pink ones decked with sparkly fleur d'ly accents on them while reading in the bathtub .....I digress.....

..so back to said mirror..well I thought this mirror was briliant! But WAIT it gets better! as I approuch I notice it has 5X magnifying on it, so I had to look closer, ...OMG! I was so shocked, I almost backed into the display behind me! Seriously, there should be a warning/disclamer label on these things...(OBJECTS SEEN WILL APPEAR LARGER AND OUT OF NOWHERE TO SCARE THE CRAP OUT OF YOU AND EMBARRASE HARDENED CRIMINALS EVEN!)

So after my heartrate becomes stable I reapprouch tentitavely ...so as not to startle my brain again...but mostly to confirm the worst.....Holy Crap Batman, it's true...Hortense and Matilda my two regularly reoccuring chin hairs have relatives!! (Yes I named my 2 chin hairs, as I got so used to seeing them over and over again, it just seemed fitting to me....)

So here I am thinking I should join the freaking circus! as the bearded lady, this is just WRONG WRONG WRONG!... how the hell have I been walking around in public like this, sheesh, it's a wonder I haven't already tripped on the damn invasion! I was mortifyed and vowed that I needed this miracle of mirrors...but I had to wait, as it was more then my budget would allow for now...so as I sit here longing for the perfect solution to my utter embarrasement, I am wondering if I should find names for the new relatives.......maybe not as I will be going to get my mirror on Monday YAY!

As for my birthday itself, I had a wonderful day! I got all dolled up...with extra care, as I wanted to take some new bday photos before heading out the door and before my makeup fell off lol. Makeup is my friend!




We went out for a nice supper then off to the Montreal Casino. It has become a tradition for the last 4 yrs...We set a budget and stuck to it. We didnt bring more money home but we had alot of fun trying! We made it last hours and even had one machine give me 2 hours of fun for only a few bucks! Bless Chris, because we got home at 2:30 am, and he had to get up for work this morning early. He is so good to me..and wouldn't have me cashing out the machine so we could leave...He said, just play it out, it's your night, enjoy it!

As I am now officially in my late 40's I can safely say I am happy and proud. Although I am getting older...I have also been on a road to better health for the past few yrs. The new wrinkles and gray hair I see, have been earned and I hope there's still alot of room for new things to be learned!