Monday, April 19, 2010


YES! I said armpits! ARGHHHHH
I have been working out since Jan 1st, and haven't really lost any weight. Now ..I do realize, and repeat to myself constantly, that building muscle is what needs to be done in order to then have that muscle burn the excess...and I mean EXCESS of fat that seems to cling to my body for dear life!
That said, I also realize that muscle is much heavier then said fat! Which explains why initally, I did gain a few lbs the first month I started my torture...I mean exercising schedule.
I have been pretty consistant in doing a mixture of cardio and resistance training with lots of crunches & core exercises on a floor mat to have a well rounded routine that takes me about an hour in all. Usually 4 or 5 times a week.
I have heard so many ppl that start working out say once they got into it, they LOVE it and NEED it...hate to miss it.
I am still waiting for this epiphany of need TO HIT ME! Seriously I personally think they are all full of bovine waste product! but hey, if saying that helps them to just DO IT, good for them!

As for moi? I HATE every *!^~%#!$@$*! Second of it! Seriously! I hate hate hate it...but..I can safely say I LOVE when I finished that god forsaken hour of HELL..that seems like it took a freakin half day of my life!
After over 3 months of this torture, I have FINALLY started to see a few results...some mild measurement reductions....let me mention that my little sewers tape measure mortifyingly couldn't reach around my waist...yes folks I am VERY VALUPTUOUS in stature (this being the most diplomatic of discriptions I could think of ). So using the big construction measuring tape from the garage has proved to be imbarrasing if anything but the Wheeeee & SLAP sound it makes when it's auto retreat mechanism brings it back to its casing is Disconcerting at best.
I don't think I have a number of lbs to lose goal anymore, I think it will be using a sewers measuring tape goal instead lol! Once I get to that pinnacle of achievement I will do naked backward cartwheels (in my mind).
So anyway, I digress!...As I was saying earlier...things have started to change, very subtly...of this I am very gratefull but still's so true what they say, the older we get the harder and longer it takes to lose weight and see changes.
As I was putting my nighty on last night, I was facing the mirror and stopped in amazement...while my arms were up in the air! My ARMPITS have lost weight!!! OMG I started laughing, called Chris over...Look! My armpits are hollower! It's so noticeable it's funny! Why couldn't it be my waist for the love of Pete! NOOO I have to have deeper armpits! YAY working out has helped the one area that NO ONE else will ever notice LMAO!!
Unless ofcourse I start walking around and randomly lift my arms and, obvious isn't it??? My pits rock!

Ok, so I have had my little vent...but let me reiterate that I am going to continue to do my body good by exercising...ofcourse I want to melt and look the way I did at 20 but I know that's NOT GONNA HAPPEN .......EVER!! do want to be healthier however and those days I just don't feel like it (basically everyday) I have to repeat to myself JUST DO IT!! and I usually do, and proud of myself for it.

I have come a very long way....For those who did not know, a few yrs ago I was a very sick person...I had full blown type 2 diabetis.. with a very slow thyroid , so weight got way out of hand, morbidly obese , high bp, cholesterol , swelling, reflux...u name it, I had perscriptions for it! I was taking meds for diabetis and so many other things, it wasn't funny! I was way too young to be so sick...with my kidneys showing bad results it got really scary when my doctor said, if things didn't change I was on the road to dialosis..soon!...NO WAY!
By that time, I was already on a waiting list for Gastric Bypass.. It was the best way for me to get the ball rolling healthwise and go from there...but let me tell you, anyone who thinks it's a quick fix that is easy are SO WRONG!...It's not easy by any means and it certainly does not eliminate the problems caused to need it in the first place! I lost 80lbs within a few months of surgery, that enables my body to better deal with diabetis without the meds..and slowly most all the meds I had been taking, were eliminated one by one !! I got alot healthier! That said...even if you can't eat alot at once, u can still eat often and you can still gain started to creep back slowly..but I refuse to go back where I over the last 2 yrs I have struggled with food and exercise like many ...on and off the wagon so to speak...and I will struggle with it all my life...I have made alot of good food long term habit changes that will stay with me always..but I refuse to DIET.. Diets are what make ppl fat..they do not work! The key is moderation and logic..we can have anything we want, just not tons of it lol..its that simple..The moment we deprive ourselves of things, we want them more and go crazy till we want to eat a tub full of it at once lol...u get the picture...Anyway....
I still weigh over 200lbs...yes I actually just wrote that for everyone to see...but that's ok...I have come a very long way, to being a much healthier person, striving to become even better every day...kicking and screaming with each step I take! LOL....I have every reason to want to live longer and be healthy doing it with the fabulous husband I have who supports me no matter what I do, who loves me no matter how much I weigh and who is often working out right next to me sweating on the days he isn't at work...During the last 8 yrs we have been together no matter my size (and there has been quite a few lol) he has ALWAYS made me feel like I was the most beautiful and sexy woman in the world to him! How lucky am I?
So I will finish this by saying:

I can only strive for more hollows to follow! One day at a time!


kenju said...

I can sympathize!! I used to be really skinny and my armpits were so hollow they almost
One day (after gaining quite a bit) I was washing in the shower and I noticed that my armpits were convex - not concave! I was sure that I had something wrong with me - and then I realized it was just fat. Maybe some day I'll have concave armpits again, but I sort of doubt it.

Good luck with your exercise and weight loss, Moon.

Star said...

Every step forward is a victory. Congrats on the new, sleek, armpits. Keep on keepin' on!

Anna said...


You crack me up gf....I love reading your posts!

Kepp up the good work and post a nice pic of those armpits. ;)

Love ya.